Fascination.

I always knew that one day someone would have an immense power over me.

But never did I think, I would carry that power over someone too.

I'm simply, fascinated.

With Love,

H

New Addition

I'd like to introduce the new addition to the family...

Michelangelo!

Our adorable Jack Russell x Pugalier is one cute dude.. and has the most adorable perpetually sad eyes I have ever seen. 

He also sleeps...

A lot.

Needless to say, the family is in love and it's going to be one hell of an adventure raising this little guy...

When he's finally awake, that is.

Getting Older

The White Walker

It's amazing that all it takes to bring down an entire empire is just the will of one person. I'm not sure where that's from but I'm using the quote very loosely to apply it to my own situation.

Yesterday I was doing some "maintenance grooming", which is essentially just a fancy way of saying "I was trimming my pubic region" and I found it. And by "it" I think you know what I mean. It's the one thing that all people who are pushing the limits of their youth are fearful of finding.

My very first white hair... down there.

MFW I found the white walker

There is something strangely prophetic about finding a white hair on your ballsack, and it seems like a rude wakeup call from your own body, reminding you that "hey, you're not getting any younger son".
Well here I am, standing in the bathroom with this single ominous pale follicle between my fingers, and all I can think in that one defining moment is Danny Glover's face looking at me with those big brown eyes going:

You Said It, Danny

Object Relations

IMPETUOUS

It's always funny how your perception of self can differ so much from the judgement of others.
I think impetuous is my new favorite word of the month.

I literally Google'd "Impetuous" and this came up. PERFECT!

Sometimes it can feel like it's all just a bit too much, and well, consuming in so many ways.
To act without thought is not to say actions will not lead to ponderous lament of regret.

Maybe I need to take a step back. Get away to a nice little Bed and Breakfast and let it all wash away.






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But where's the fun in that?

Work Relationships

Relationships Between You & Your Colleagues

For those that are in the know, I have been working at PerthWeb for nigh on a year (coming up in June). 

You can follow us on Twitter or Facebook or LinkedIn, or even Google+.

The biggest change for me was definitely the full time hours, and the experience of delving into a whole new industry which I have had no previous (work) experience in.

PerthWeb - Web Design Studio

Like with any industry, the lingo and work processes was daunting to say the least - but what made the transition easier was the help of my fellow workmates. 

The work culture and level of support really is one of the most important factors in any organisation, and I feel that the hardworking yet at the same time chilled and relaxed environment really fosters a positive relationship among everyone in the office.

How I imagine I look with my office partner

Although working in an industry where sitting at your desk and staring at dual monitor screens for hours is essential (and the norm, I might add), it still feels like a close community where strangely enough you don't feel alone or isolated at all.

And in true Meng fashion, I managed to meet someone in the office who also shared my interests in Dota 2. Needless to say we are the offices' new geek couple! He has really become a crutch to me - my endless questions and thirst for knowledge would have probably enraged someone less patient. I am truly grateful :)

My office lover and I on our way to TraVinh

There is a moral to this little snippet of my life: your workmates/colleagues are essentially your new family. For those that work full time, you essentially spend more time with your colleagues than you do with your loved ones (this realization was a bit exasperating); so treat your workmates as your family. Be kind, be respectful, be helpful, and have fun whenever you can. Because nothing makes work more enjoyable than when you enjoy what you are doing, and having great people to work with.

STRESSED OUT MUCH

So recently due to some personal/professional reasons I have been feeling both bummed out AND stressed out :( Worry doesn't do me any good because I break out in pimples and I swear I have some white hairs in the woodworks.  

It's never a bad time for a picture of Garfield

But most annoyingly, my sleep has been affected which results in annoying neck pains and a weird inexplicable cramp in my lower back. Enter my own personal superheroes at Perth Chiropractic - Oasis Chiropractic. Not only do they help with chronic headaches and my unfortunate neck pain, but they are great chiropractors for scoliosis - which is fantastic for my poor partner who has suffered from scoliosis since forever. 

If everyone treated each other the way chiropractors treated their patients I am pretty confident that the world would be a better (and backache-free) place!

Here's to hoping for a better nights sleep!

HAPPY HORSE!

Happy Chinese New Year Everybody!

It's a double celebration for me as I turn a year older in the year of the HORSE!

Born in the year of the horse has been one of my greatest accomplishments,
which is kind of disappointing and sad. 

Just don't ask me "Why the long face?" because it's not funny after the 24th time.

2014 Year of the HORSE!

That Time

It's THAT time. 

I can see it all around me. Everyone is on the move to buy their next big thing - a house. The epitome of "I've made it. I've grown up and now I have responsibilities and a mortgage - get on my levels!" kind of statement.

That feeling of watching those around you make their way towards ticking off another box really stirs a distinctive dichotomy of emotions within me - jealous yet proud.
This rat race that is life only feels so much more so when others around you achieve bigger goals and attain bigger things.

And like a jealous schoolgirl perving on her friend's newest impossibly-hot boyfriend's facebook, I took to the web to look at houses myself - because I like kicking a dog when its down, especially if I'm that particularly sad puppy.

As much as I used to hate going open home snooping with the family, I have to say I have a new profound respect for the amount of artistry and technique that goes into designing and building a house.
Special mentions and props to the people that come up with the names of these designs - the Grange, the Burlington, Grand Viento (ooh lala) - all of which I found in a particular Perth Home Design Library at Central Avenue Homes, where they make custom built homes.

Obviously after a certain while my imaginary bank account that resided in my fantasy has grown exponentially and now I am looking at luxury 2 storey homes, cos hey - if my imagination can conjure the money for a luxury 2 storey house, it can surely conjure an aesthetically pleasing family of my own to go with it, right?


Now I am in full gear, reading about the builders and their ethos - if I'm going to build a fantasy house I better make sure I've got the right builders to do it :P I think these luxury custom luxury builders at Domination Homes have the winning motto "your home your way". And when it comes down to the nuts and bolts of it - having a house and having a home are two different things, and as long as those I love are able to make them one and the same - I'm happy enough. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

NEW PATCH

DOTA2 6.79 patch is up and running!
Made me realize that in life we have patch updates too -
Common Law and Legislation

IFHM

Monday

Why is there an acronym for Thank God Its Friday
but none for I FUCKING HATE MONDAYS?
IFHM should be a thing, don't you reckon?
I sit here weeping as the weekend beckons

New smells

Smell like a winner

So as you may or may not know, for the longest time Hilfiger has been my scent, and I really do enjoy it:

That's what you're smelling when I walk gracefully past you

However, as time moves on, as should I - and I am currently in the search for a new scent.

I came across this site that stocks really cheap cologne for men and the best part is they do FREE DELIVERIES OVER $95. Sweet.

I've tried Diamonds, and it's pretty nice.

A part of me is thinking of going all out and just getting a whole damn gift set

"Versace Versace, Medusa head on me like I'm 'luminati"

What do you guys reckon?

Holding On

"We live in war, rest in peace 
Using hope as a shield when swinging swords against the Beast 
Wondering if I got a tragic life ahead of me 
Cause on my roads to riches: traffic lights are never green 
My imagination is restricted by a migraine 
When I try to paint a perfect picture in my mind frame 
Dreaded how times change 
Friends using drugs and alcohol as anaesthetics for life pain "
- Rhyme Asylum

Achievement

The other day I finished writing an assignment for my Negotiation unit.

I had to write about a weakness I could isolate from my negotiation skills/performance.
I found that my particular weakness was that I was all too eager to give in to what the other party wants in order to retain an amiable relationship with that other party.

"Winner takes all. Oh who am I kidding, you can have it all. I just like holding your hand"

It makes me reflect on how this desire to be liked by those around you - even strangers who's opinions should matter for naught, is an interesting factor in the outcome of our personalities.
Though I considered this to be a weakness, in essence, everyone shares this attribute.
It is our psychological, and I daresay physiological need to belong (Maslow, anyone?) - to connect with other people and to feel like a part of a collective.

As much as someone desires to be an "individual" and assert that they are 'different to everyone else'; at the core of this assurance is the longing to be adored and by setting themselves apart from the horde, ironically, connect with the collective.

"Screw you guys, I'm a DRAGON!!" "but dude, you're just an egg like the rest of us"

My man Eric Hoffer says it best:
"To a man utterly without a sense of belonging, mere life is all that matters. It is the only reality in an eternity of nothingness, and he clings to it with shameless despair."

Boys and Men

Although both are of the same gender, species and family, there is a very big difference between boys and men. So different, you probably wouldn't even think they were of the same gender.

Firstly, perhaps the most crucial yet fundamental difference lies in what impresses them. Boys can be smitten and impressed  by the appearance of someone. That there, would be enough reason for them to go out of their way and attempt to 'lock this person down'. On the other side of the spectrum, you have men. Men are impressed by the way their partners minds work and how they are as a whole. No short skirts, tight tops and underwear parading will be enough to get them to lock you down. A ring is is a conversation away and the stimulation comes from the mind as opposed to the eyes.

I guess you could say that boys are more attracted by what they see and men are more attracted by what they hear. Breaking that down, this shows that boys and men can come from all ages. There is no age on maturity and no limit to idiocy.

Much love,

Death Derivatives

Talking with a friend about the inevitability and unfairness of death always gets me into a strange, poignant mood.

It is such a harsh reality that everyone has to meet their maker, and not all deaths are under "fair circumstances". Not only that, but there are those that meet their untimely demise without having had the chance to tick off their bucket list, or there are those poor souls that were just treated horribly up until the time of their passing.

It's such a harsh reality, the unfairness of death is only reflected by the fairness of life that was experienced. And though most everyone wishes their memory to be honored; to be remembered with fondness, there are so many, too many, who pass on to the next life without being remembered.

These personal thoughts on death makes even the most oblivious individual to reflect on their own lives, and to make choices on how to fully "experience life", to maximize their hopes and dreams, their pleasures, their beliefs, their existence.

It's all a race against time. Will you become that person that you strive to be, to live the life you want to live, before death comes knocking at your door?

Wrinkly skin

Now before you get ideas about wrinkly knee, elbow, or gonad skin; I am talking about those frown lines and crows feet that people really freak out about.

As shallow as it sounds, I am so fearful of these lines, because even though they are essentially symbolic of wisdom due to growing older; for some reason I have a feeling that it just won't suit my face. I truly believe my smile is horrifying enough even WITHOUT wrinkles on my forehead and god forbid - deep crows feet running from my eyes.

It got me curious about how willing I would be; when that time comes, to inject stuff into my face to try and hold on to some sense of youthfulness/appeal. I found this site which does wrinkle relaxers/fillers, and is it just me or is there a lack of asian faces on there?


Although this one looks pretty close...

But in all honesty, at the end of the day I think it's just going to be one of those things where I won't know for sure until the time comes. Who knows, maybe I will have a late onset of ugly duckling syndrome, and become a real hot DILF?


Here's to hoping.

TI3

Congrats to Alliance for winning the TI3

I know it's a bit late since the grandfinals were on this Monday... but I couldn't just leave it!
I think watching the Dota 2 TI3 has made change my mind about my number 1 dota 2 Crush (Puppey).

Cos watching Alliance's S4 during the tournament was a real eye opener.
Those plays.... oh god those plays...

But no doubt Alliance deserved to win the TI3, they were just consistently strong throughout the whole match. But watching S4's clock and puck plays were just.... dotagasmic.

Alliance holding the Aegis of Champions for winning the Dota 2 TI3!!!
My new crush S4 is the lovely guy on the left hand side with his veins poppin out his neck 



Na'Vi was so close... yet so far. Best Grand Final I have ever witnessed.
Even for non dota players I am sure that watching those 5 matches would have stirred something deep within them. And S4 has sure as hell stirred something within me :$

Locked out in the cold

Don't you hate it when you are ready to head out, and in your rush to have a good time you endup locking yourself out of the house with only your phone?


Welcome to my life.

That's me if I were a brunette woman


Locking yourself out of the house is so painfully durr that it's embarrassing to make that call to a locksmith.
But these guys I found are really great locksmiths and not only fast, but understanding too.
Loved the professionalism, and didn't make me feel like a dolt.

Glad I called em and found out that they also do a whole bunch of other stuff too like alarm systems and security doors - pretty much anything to do with security.

I picked them cos they're SOR like me, so it was a pretty short wait.
Would definitely get security services from them if I ever needed it.
(Although I really hope I never hope to lock myself out of the house again - being late means having to buy rounds to make up for lost time, yeowch)

Though it feels like I may have locked my self control at home :( drank way too much and had way too much fun.

Girl's best friend

Because of a friend's upcoming nuptials it's got me thinking a lot about engagement rings, and learning about the differences in diamonds like clarity and cut, etc.

Which of course led me to jumping on Google and looking at rings for over an hour.
Found an awesome site where you can not only search for a specific diamond, but it also TEACHES YOU about diamonds too. Site is called Divinity Diamonds and it's definitely worth checking out if you are in the market for a smex engagement ring.

Call me simple, but I think I found a winner here...

This baby is called the PASSION. what a sic name!













As they say, everything that glitters ain't always gold... but diamonds sure as hell do

Schrödinger's relationship

It's like sleepwalking.
A state of zombie like consciousness.
This thing that I've created,
which I am no longer sure is dead or alive.
And I'm left feeling the same.