thoughts

now i can say that i would not care, if you were not there,
tell myself that i'll be fine without ya, but i would die if i was not around ya,
and i can try to convince you i don't need to be with you,
but my only thoughts are thoughts about ya,

cause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) - ain't nothin i can do about it,
it's been too long, it's been too strong - yes, we belong here,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other)

:)

ok

and until i know you're ok,

i know i'll never be ok.

i'm messed up. that's all :)

side note : originality is the best surprise:)

thanks a bunch :) i think you topped it this year :)

-lmc:)

sweet

who knew people could be sweeter than mudcake?
i sure as hell didn't.
you guys...seriously, made my day.
from the small little messages, to the blogs, to the small slices of cake as well as handling my crankiness due to lack of 'protein' LOL
i'm sorry but i appreciate it :)
intangible gifts are the best gifts :)


...on my own,
i know what i'd do
on my own,
i'll be leaning on you ;)

waiting for the 11:59 :)


YOU GUYS ARE TOO SWEET :) I feel so lucky just to have you guys in my life :)

-lmc

surprise :D

Surprise me! it's the only thing i really want :)
really :)


-lmc

mutually exclusive

whatever happens next, happens for a reason.
I don't know much...the only thing i know is that...
this will open doors and slam the doors that were ajar.
close the door for this is the closest to closure we will ever find.


-lmc

believe

good afternoon :)

i bet you haven't opened up one of my rambles for a while. miss it don't you? it's ok, i would too, i'm pretty awesome. Anyways, i have a very very wise friend that gave me some very wise advice. LOL. i'm totally kidding, we were just having a convo about friends.

believe it or not, i don't really believe that we're meant to have set friends. I think anybody can be friends with one another because we begin to hang out with them so much that you grow a tolerance to the crap they do, but if somebody else were to do half the shit they did, we'd cut sick. So yeah, the more you hang out with somebody the closer you guys become, not because you like them for them, but because you grow a tolerance. lol, it's called adapting. LOL, you adapt with the people you're with. yeah.

-lmc

retaliate

some things just can't be helped
please don't hate me.
-lmc

mixeddd

i won't lie.
half the time I can't bloody stand you.
I know that you're bad for me,
but i keep you close,
cause i know you make me happy.

lmc

Lockout

she comes and goes, walks in and out so easily, so effortlessly
the promises she makes only ever remembers vaguely, so vacuously
i bring her into my life, just want for her to stay
but when we fight i see her go and that's the price i pay
i hate to see her go, and it hurts to watch her leave
i'm running out of patience, no more aces up my sleeve
so lock her up and see her cry
cos nothing hurts more than hearing goodbye
im sorry for what i've done, my stubbornness and my doubt
but cutting me from your life is not the easy way out.
so lets work it out, pick ourselves up from the anger-drenched mud,
and show me what it means to you to be truly more than blood.


-mh

perfection

'If life was a fairy tale,
If we lived in the movies,
or even the books,
i'll be the ave girl
and you'd be the perfect guy.
But we don't live in the movies, the books and life isn't a fairy tale.
hell, It seems you don't even know my name...






...yet;)

lol, lets change the stars eh ;)

-lmc

communication

'it brings us together,
it breaks us apart.'

-lmc

Influence

Perhaps we aren't gullible.
Maybe, the reason we allow poeple to influence us,
is because it gives us a perspective to a third person point of view.
Just saying.

-lmc

mature

and sometimes i think i grew up too quickly.
I can't seem to construct a proper conversation with younger people,
and all my friends are older than me.
Except Ness and Julie, who by, technicality, are older than me, but they're both mature as hell anyway. I wonder if I missed out on a big part of my life by growing up too quickly?
But then again, i'd rather be a 50 yr old woman in a 18 yr olds body, then some cool cat at tz taking skankalicious photos.

-lmc

fall

and sometimes we fall,
just because we don't want to be the last one standing

-lmc

realisaton #12

respect

Respect, reputation and money have the same core qualities.
All the power hungry people in the world seem to want it.


...that and the fact that it's so hard to gain, and easy to lose.
One choice and i lost all the respect i had for you.
6 months to gain, 1 minute to lose.


-lmc

rage

sometimes, we deserve to break, rage, bleed and feel pain to remind ourselves we're human.

i've been broken, i played basketball and my toe bled, and yeah that was painful, so guess what?
it's my turn to rage

so what now?
lol, do i just say what i feel like others would? what do i say?
that your comments burn me more than the sun burns albinos?
that what? you freaking piss me off when you make assumptions. yeah, they make an ass of me and you, so don't do it. if you don't mind looking like an ass, don't make me look like one.
that what? you just bug the shit out of me atm?
that what? you don't even realise half the things i tell you, cause you brush me off, like a dirty little fly on a hot summers day?
give me a break. no, just give me a minute or two out oof your goddam life to realise some things.

ffs hey

realisation #11

strength

'That moment where you realise it doesn't even hurt anymore.
Maybe you didn't let go, get stronger or grow immunity.
maybe you just learned to grow up'

-lmc

realisation #10

acceptance

That moment that you realise,
the only reason you no longer care,
is because you know you're not allowed too.

-lmc

realisation #9

eclipse

And it was like an eclipse, things that you could only read about.
You knew they exist, so when the time came,
why didn't you see it?
It was right there, but you were a minute late.
damn, cause you knew it could be beautiful.
damn, next time and you swear you won't miss it.

-lmc

thoughts

sometimes i wonder which one would hurt more

when you would get hurt, cause i would get angry because i cared,
or the fact that i no longer care.

probably the first, cause you probably don't realise the latter exists.

hmmm

sometimes we over think cause we know the other won't.

-lmc

realisation #8

influence

cause sometimes, the only reason it makes sense is because it's been reasoned out. =.=
motherchucker

-lmc

realisation #7

drama

drama is only created from our own insecurities.

-lmc

realisation #6

drain

sometimes we drain people,
just to see, how much they can really take.

-lmc

realisation #5

enough

perhaps the only reason it seems nobody is good enough,
is because I was never good enough,
so I assume that I'll never be enough for anyone.
Not the vice versa

-lmc

realisation #4

life

life is a tug of war.
people are always going to try and pull you to their side.

However, it probably has never occured to them, by doing so,
they're actually tearing you apart.

-lmc

Do me a favour meng? Renata hit me in the balls, so I think you should give her an angry frosted dragon. Plox? <3 tim

:O but did you deserve it timmy?

I'll hear her side of the story and make my judgement then.

Ask me anything

skanks

'why are all the people i care about
or close to me
all such skanks?

the saying must be true.
opposites DO attract =)


(yes, you too ea you slut) '

-mh

realisation #3

race

sometimes, regardless of how fast or long we run,
we won't make it to the finish line.
simple because, we didn't go to the right starting point.

-lmc

realisation #2

care.

I didn't stop caring, i stopped believing.
I guess when it comes down to it, you only put in as much effort into someone that's willing to do the same back to you.
SO when you act sweet to me, i'll be sweet.
be a bitch and i'll be a bitch.
When you stopped trying, it felt like you stopped caring...
and after a while i guess i stopped believing you would care.
i let go. But, i never stopped caring.

-lmc

knots

damn u.

u forgot ur cupcake.
and it was noughts and crosses.
i'm obviously not very happy with u


har.har.har

sometimes we make up lil jokes, to realise we were the biggest joke of it all

-lmc

ness

dearest ness/ b1/ skank/ slut / one of the closest friens i'll ever have:)

since my phone decided to ko on me, i couldnt message to say happy birthday so i decided to blog it:)

Happy birthday dear:) i hope you have the most fantastic day ever!
i really do:)i've only known you for a bit but it seems like a lifetime:)
in that short period of time, we've been by each others side through the up's and low's and i know it's weird (we only became friends from weird circumstances ;) but i'm so glad we are friends:)
i hope whatever you're looking for today, you'll receive because behind all that ice your heart is made up of, i know there's a beating heart that is filled with gold.
and i know that because i know that even when you say your heart is made of ice, when i look at you, you're one of the nicest, most caring people i know:)well duh! you have to be, to be a good friend of mine ;)

so i would like to take out this 5 minutes or so to say...

Happy Birthday :)
i'm sure it'll be amazing, cause let's face it...you are:)

xx.
Helen

realisation #1

so yeah, i think i'm actually stupid. why?
well think about it...

If you were dumb enough to walk out of my life,
i must be pretty freakin stupid to let you back in.
I should have closed the door and stormed out.
RAWR.
i'm passing out second chances faster than sluts pass on STI's.
Yeah, they're both crappy in this world

-lmc

guess

LOL, i think i've come to a point in my life where everything is funny.
The accumulation of crap that goes down has finally drove me crazy.
well crazier than before =]
So, this month, will be a month of surprises :)
not to mention birthdays:)
2 of my closest friends birthdays are coming up:)
yes, that's you ness and julie:)

Anyways, i think i'm happy with teh way things are atm. LOl, i think things turned out teh way i thought they would.
oh wells. as i said. shit happens. =)

-lmc