goodbye

''i dont wanna say goodbye,
So i'm just standing there wondering why,
just don't ever wanna see you cry,
so imma say goodbye

aint no one in this world
that can ever take your place,
and the love that we shared
it can never be erased
and i know that,
but it hurts so bad,
and i'm sorry,
you're the best I had'

-lmc <3

today

today is the last day i can blog before i leave to bussleton?
i think we're going to bussleton. i don't know to be honest nor do i care, nor am i excited. I don't wanna leave :( im already home sick and i haven't even left.
That's probably why i'm so reluctant to pack.
BUT no, today was a fabby day :)
had an epic lunch/ brekkie with one of my awesome mates and just went around exploring perth.
what else? i went SHOPPING!!! :) and i've learnt how to budget. well kinda
and now? i just came back from spending time with joolay. oh how i missed her :(
Seeing her just makes me wanna stay back and not leave. sigh.
she lets me see straight when everything is foggy. she's like my own personal prescribed glasses :) the optometrist that said i had 20/20 lied. i can't see anthing :( LOL
But yeah, all up...epic day:)

-lmc :)

swift

'i would find it cute,
if you weren't such a pathetic piece of shit.
it's not that i don't like you,
it's that i never bothered to try to.
why? cause being nice just gets you screwed over.
what does this mean?
I can describe our relationship oh so swiftly.
fml'

p.s. oh no i think the bitch is back :/

-lmc

why can meng kiss boy and still be straight -tim

Dear tim,
This is because he keeps his percentage relatively high. As long as his ratio is above 80/20, that is, he kisses at least 80% more girls than he does boys, then he remains straight. If this scale tips and his percentage falls less than that of 80%, he is no longer straight but bi. If his percentage falls lower than 50%, then he is a full fledged homo.
Not only that, but he is not sexually attracted to boys and does not find any sexual appeal in penises (even docking).

Ask me anything

reality

'so yeah, i miss talking to you.
maybe its that, or maybe i miss you.
fml'

-lmc

benevolence

'benevolence and
malevolence are so close in spelling
but so polar in meaning.
theres the fine line between love and hate:
its all in the linguistics.'

-mh

'it sucks when your benevolence,
becomes your regret'

-lmc

ave

'i don't think people are ave,
i think the situations they're in are ave,
or the situations they make for themselves are ave.
one way or the other, somebody in the world loves them,
and there's probably a good reason why :)'

-lmc


'this post is dedicated
to a very special person:
her name is AVE GIRL
and though she may be ave,
she will come to realize
that all pet names come with both
a mix of both affection and honesty.
things arent always the way we want it to be
and we cant always make other people happy.
but to accept yourself for who and what you are,
then you too can laugh along with us
because we are not the enemy.
We are.. your friends =)"

-mh

why are asians so yellow?

asians have yellow skin colour due to their biological ancestors who worshipped gold deities such as the huge buddha, and so coated their bodies in yellow ocra. it is also known that a staple diet of rice with soya sauce and exotic asian fruits like dragonfruit and starfruit gives the skin a natural glowing shine.

Ask me anything

life in words

start : the diet
stop : the pride
love : the moment
hate : undefinable
missing : a lot
gaining : more
trying : so hard
failing : nothing
giving up : on you
leaving: with a quote

" I only limit myself to you, cause i already miss you and I don't wanna miss you more' :)

-lmc

why are negros oh so black? <3 ea

dear ea,
negros are "black" due to the nature of the pigmentation of their skin. because of their ancestors, who would play basketball and hunt for chicken in the harsh deserts, their skin adapted to the harsh UV rays of the sun through copious amounts of pigmentation. It is also known that their dark skin helped them to camouflage in the night when they had massive wars against the ninjas in the East when migrating from one continent to another.

Ask me anything

bliss

'they say

' if at first you don't succeed. pick yourself up and try again'

I've picked myself up, but no, i won't try again.
I've tried many times, and each time,
it leads me to disappointment so I'm just going to stop.
I can't try again, if i know the end result will probably
just lead to a useless cause.
It would be so much easier just to not know.
sometimes, ignorance really is bliss'

-lmc


'sleeping in
is so blissful.
and then you wake up to reality.
maybe thats why death is called
"eternal bliss".
maybe its all about finding something worth waking to.
or next to.'

-mh

crush

'baby, there's a reason they call it that.
That's gonna be the state of your heart,
when it's all over an done with'

-lmc :)



'
"legend tells of a man
so powerful that he can reach
into the chest of his enemies
and crush their hearts with his fist."

pffft, so what? i know a girl
that can crush a mans heart
just with her eyes.'

-mh

twist

'i love watching movies
with twist endings.
i like mindfucks.
i enjoy getting my mind blown.
...among other things'

-mh

'you weren't a twist to my story.
More like a pleasant surprise'

-lmc :)

what is the meaning of life ea

There is no real absolute or universal meaning of life, as even if there were to be one, we as fallable humans may never find it.
However, the search for this inherent meaning can lead you to create your own intrinsic meaning to life, something for which you live your life by.
Just be sure you never confuse this selfmade meaning and purpose with the true objective definition of the "meaning of life". For that is the absurdity of life that we lead.
Enjoy life and do not take everything too seriously, for everything that we consider to be serious or real is arbitrary anyway =)

Ask me anything

bottle

'i was always fascinated
by those bottles with miniature ships in them.
how could something so majestic, so sophisticated,
like those ships be contained by such a small vessel.
like they're trapped.
its hauntingly impressive.
that is my mind, stuck inside this vessel of a body'

-mh

'In a sense, the body is like a bottle,
it can only take so much before it overfills.
Your effect on me?
In the form of tears dear'

-lmc

ripple

'the ripple effect
when a single action
causes a wave of consequences
but this only occurs
when there is water.
for without, an action is just a stone
that falls to the ground '

-mh

'when i first met you,
i thought you would be someone,
that would just drop in with no effect.
But no, you made a ripple effect in my life,
changing everything i do and say.
how do i know that?
cause i'm thinking of you right now'

-lmc

shade

'
the shadow cast from your inner fantasies
provide a nice shade for those daring enough
to play within it,
until that shadow suddenly disappears,
and you see that i was the one that shined upon you.
and those that played among the shade,
will be nought but scorched.'

-mh

'Adding sunglasses doesn't make everything gloomy,
it just makes it easier to see when everything is bright and blurry.
Put those sunnies on and make it easier for yourself to see.
sure its a tad more gloomy and dour,
but hey, at least you can see it better now right?
sometimes i wish i could put sunnies on too see you.'

-lmc

silence

'sometimes in order to see,
you need to have silence.
How do two different senses correlate?
sometimes, in order to be able to do something right,
you need something completely irrelevant to impose.'

-lmc


'if silence is golden
then men's genitals
should surely be called
"the midas touch"'

-mh

need

' i only put up with your crap,
cause i NEED you in my life.
No, you don't make me happy.
The things you bring to my life make me happy.
But in a sense, i shouldn't complain,
you do treat me well'

-lmc

'
I need you like Sago needs glee
I need you like Ness needs purity
I need you like Eugene needs A/C
I need you like Helen needs coffee
I need you like Naijiao needs Jackie
I need you like Jen Kan needs Timmy
I need you like Jackie needs bubbletea
I need you like Nhandoes needs a degree
I need you like Karen needs stuff for free
I need you like Simon needs his Queen Bee
I need you like Renata needs her Strawberry
I need you like Jong needs to update frequently
I need you like George needs a certain W-H-A-L-E
I need you like Joshy needs constant female company


I need you like you need me,
Wouldn't you agree?
Don't believe me then take my hand and see
Together we can be whatever, wherever we want to be.'

-mh

expect

'When you expect too much from me,
it's always going to leave to disappointments.
I'm sorry i always seem to disappoint you,
but you probably shouldn't have those expectations of me.
I think that you have to shift your expectations onto somebody else,
cause i'm clearly never gonna hit them.
It's not that I don't want to,
It's just that I'm not suppose to'

-lmc


'expect,
expectations,
examples of ugly words.
eliminate these from your vocabulary, and
enjoy life, as you
eliminate the things that will only disappoint and make an
example for those that are still hoping.
expectations,
expect.

end the cycle.
eos'

-mh

destination

'"Thus I draw from the absurd three consequences:
which are my revolt, my freedom, and my passion.
By the mere activity of consciousness
I transform into a rule of life what was an
invitation to death, and I refuse suicide."
-Albert Camus

..because the destination is always the same.
the only way to enjoy the journey
is to be as absurd as the absurdity of it all =)'

-mh

'i've got something on my mind,
and i can't seem to let it go.
I've bene plotting different ways to tell you,
but i don't think it matters...
cause at the end,
it'll just end up at the same destination.'

-lmc

rant

" first time in a long time,
i've actually been this angry.
It doesn't match me very well.
That moment you can feel everything,
bottled up all inside until that moment,
where u realise it's overloading
and you're gonna burst.
ffs. fk off
-i'm not in the mood for games"

force

'trying to force myself to yack,
so i feel better,
has made me realise:
Purging yourself of your impurities
makes you feel weak, but better.
What doesn't kill you,
makes you stronger.
It takes a strong will
to admit weakness.
And so here I am,
The King of Purity'

-mh

'Gonna force myself to stop.
why? because i finally realise what's right and wrong.
This is wrong and i'm right for thinking so.
i bet you won't agree,
but it's time to stop.
Even if we don't want to,
it's time to force ourselves to.
It ends today. This hour, this minute, this second...now :('

-lmc

oneitis

The Helen Le dictionary

' Defn: oneitis
oneitis- to have one person as their world; one person is somebody's world
synonyms- loner, dog
antonym- happy, free, social'

-lmc


'HAHAHAHHAHHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA
...because its a joke.
there's a reason why I'm immune.
and there's a reason why you're not,
sago'

-mh

mind

'theres no such thing as impossible
only difficult.
the only obstacles
are in your mind.'

-mh

'those that mind don't matter,
but those that matter don't mind.
that's why i don't mind being mean to you.
cause i know that you don't mind,
so to you it really doesn't matter'

-lmc :)

Mix

'Mix and match:
As many flavours
In any number of combinations
As you can try and find.
None of them will taste
Like Happy Strawberry Time'


-mh

'at the end of the day,
we're all a bit like a mixed lolly bag,
we have our good parts,
and our bad parts.
so why do we still buy it with the bad parts?
cause it makes the bag interesting'

-lmc :)

Do

'Do re mi
Un dos tres
like 1 2 3
like a b c
everythings better in 3s
that's where i want to be'


-mh

'do what you please.
that way, you won't end up regretting.
do things, smile at things,
and never regret anything that ever made you smile'

-lmc

realise

i've come to realise a couple of things in my moment of procrastination

- i think i've had enough. moderation is key.
-damn, we really are 60-40. It's cool though i guess.
-i miss work :(
-I honestly can't wait for ASIA camp. ready ness? :)
-I have so much planned for holidays. how much of it will i actually do?
-You really have become one of my best friends huh? I like it though :)
-i think I miss you. damn.
-there's a chance i'm gonna fail my exam on fri if i continue this post :(

-lmc

share

'sharing is a problem
when there's not enough to go around
but why should sharing be a problem,
if there's plenty to go around?
take as much as you want
and not what you think you want'

-mh

'the minute you make me share,
is the minute you see me walk away.
i am Helen. I do NOT share.
even if that means giving up you'

-lmc

sense

'some things just don't make sense
but that doesn't make it any less meaningful.
damn, i really want a froke right now.'

-mh

'what doesn't make sense,
is the fact that we make sense,
by not making sense,
yet the minute we make sense,
it's back to the place where it doesn't make sense
so in a sense, it goes back to us making sense'

-lmc

seize

'i'm a great believer in
"carpe diem",
though i can see why
not all people might not see my POV.
...especially those with epilepsy'

-mh

'sometimes I wish I had seized that moment.
Not because that moment gave me happiness,
but you in that moment,
is the you i prefer.'


-lmc

life

'life in a nutshell
- finally giving up. the timeline is up. i'm impatient.
- finally realised. i need to stop, i just don't know how.
- finally focused. i know what i want, and i know how to get it.
- finally determined. i've been deprived of motivation for a while now.
- finally found. something that was never lost.
- finally chose. To go neither way and stray my own path.
- finally shut. It was probably for your benefit not mine.
- finally upset. I actually needed this one to understand you.

yeah that's my life in a nutshell. FInally had to time to do this. yay :)

-h

deprive

'why deprive yourself
of the things you want?
you only live once, so
make the MOST of it,
but take ALL of it.
and leave NOTHING to chance.'

-mh

'Being deprived of you,
didn't make me angry it just made me upset,
just like being angry at you,
doesn't make you upset at me,
it just makes you wanna deprive yourself of me'

-lmc

fk you

'u know what? fk u
unreliable people are so ave.
you are fkn ave.
ffs if u say ur gonna do something, can u do it?
don't make broken promises.
u know what?
ur really starting to piss me off.
u know what?
who the hell do u think u are?
u know what?
these are things i wanna tell people'

-lmc

wait

"I bet you think it's easier to lie to yourself,
even got yourself believing you're better off with somebody else,
so you sacrificed your security,
cause your impatient self couldn't wait for me,
and you settled for the first thing through the door"

-lmc


'when homework turns into essays and exams,
when schoolgirls turn into sluts
when detention turns into suspension
when skipping school turns into skipping work
when juice turns into alcohol
when lollipops turn into cigarettes
when getting high meant getting on a swing
when wearing a skirt didn't make you a slut
when protection meant wearing a helmet
when the worst thing you could get from girls were cooties
when race issues were about who was the fastst
when dad's shoulders were the highest place on earth
when the most pain you felt was scraping your knee

...and we couldn't WAIT to grow up'

-mh

abandon

'the worst type of abandonment
is not being left behind.
it's being forgotten,
by someone you will never forget'

-mh

' If you were gonna abandon me,
Could you leave all of me?
You took a piece of me that I will never get back,
so now i'm empty, and cold.
yeah, abandonment makes girls bitches and boys jerks.
true story.'

-lmc

insomnia

"and i can't sleep till your next to me"

-mh






"i sleep better now that you're gone,
not because life without you is better,
quite the opposite in fact.
But once I close my eyes,
it's my own lala land,
and the ending is the way I want it to be"

-lmc

dislike

' I don't know why, but i'm starting to dislike things more and more everyday.
from the words people say,
to the things that people do,
to just people themselves.
I doubt I have a legit reason...besides the fact that i can.
That or the simple realisation that
I care too much about too little,
and that others care too little about too much,
maybe that's why i've become such a bitter bitch these days.
so while you drown yourself in sorrow,
i'll drown myself in sweets.
hey, something has to compensate for my bitterness right?'

-lmc



'you can't spell DISLIKE
without LIKE
it's all a matter of give and take.
its too late to take it all back
but its never too late to give it all up.
or give in.'

-mh

forget

'my plan is to forgive and forget,
forgive myself for being stupid,
and forget that part of you, ever existed'

-lmc



'my memory is shocking
and there are so many things
that i forget so easily.
stay with me forever, then.
so i never forget you.
every moment is a new memory'

-mh

truth

'
"There are 4 trains in life:
1. what people want
2. what they believe
3. what they know
4. what they feel
when those 4 questions collide,
you get the truth" '

-mh

"truth is, there is no such thing as the absolute truth.
We make truth, for it is mind over matter.
Tell yourself something enough, and it'll probably come true...
'baby, if you can dream it, you can become it'"

-lmc :)

new

'new is such an old word.
it just takes up different meanings.
just as an old word can take up new meanings.

-------------------------
new me
new you
same us.'

-mh

'same me,
same you,
different perspective,
same me, different you'

-lmc

guilt

'this is why women are genetically dispositioned
to feel "guilt" while men are not:

men have a dick and no conscience whilst
women have a conscience and no dick.

fairer sex? you tell me'

-mh

'occurs after you do something where
the heart begs yes,
and the mind yells no'

-lmc