Love

I used to think my utopia
was a land of cornucopia,
Happiness was a sinful, blissful breed,
of Gluttony and greed.
But then the greatest covin of my head and my heart,
Presented a new happiness, a word
where the meaning and feeling were oft worlds apart.
Three words, eight letters, to give and receive,
But whether it be truth or a lie
depends on how you perceive or believe
For in the end whats the meaning of "less than three"
If there never was an 'us' and I'm feeling less than me.


-mh

Because I said I would

Jingle in my pockets, chuck em down the wishing well
To get inside her head, not just a kiss and tell
Swallow me whole like Jonah, proverbial retell,
Instead she lead me down the gateway to hell.

-mh

fathom

This morning i saw a homeless man writing in a diary.
oh the price i would have paid to see that diary, just to try and fathom the brutality of our streets.

-lmc

omit

I always told myself that I couldn't wait to hate you.
Now that I do, I really wish I didn't,
cause truth is, it doesn't feel half as good as I thought it would.

-lmc

mistake

can it still be considered the same mistake ,
if it's different people, different circumstances and a different situation?

-lmc

passion

'i hope every sentence, every word and every breath i take has passion.
call me intense, but when you believe in something, you pass on that passion and people will start to believe it as well.
My values have stayed the same through thick and thin, through days, months and years.
You have become everything i dislike about people.
Please cut it out before i cut you from my life.'

-lmc

forgive

'...and don't be stupid helen.
To forgive is a right not an obligation.
To forget is not a right but an obligation.
Can you really forget?
Don't be stupid, Helen.'

-lmc

learn

We come to hate people not because of the things they do to us,
but the things we see them do to the people we love.

-lmc

bottom

that feeling of hitting rock bottom.

"I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy,
Because I'm easy come, easy go, Little high, little low,
Any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to me"
-queen

-mh

capture

when words cannot describe.
when actions cannot justify.
when thoughts have an expiry date.

-lmc

question

the question does not lie within the 'how', it lies within the 'if'.

-lmc

moment

that moment you realise some things are better left
-unspoken, unsaid, unknown and best of all
-uncared for.

leave. get out, go away.
Why don't these words work anymore?
that's right, how many times have I said these words and turned my own back on them?
I guess this time these words are turning their backs on me.

-lmc

grow

cause every physical step i take forward,
I mentally take 2 steps back.
Every step i mentally take forward,
I take a physical step back.

-lmc

sunday morning

Pretty sure at one stage or another every girl has felt this way. Giving your all and still not being good enough to the point you realise it's not you it's them. Cause that's the only time you're never gonna be good enough (y)

-lmc

Challenge Day 3

Even with no shirt on you got me hot under the collar.
Lets bounce girl, i know how to roll cos imma baller.
When im up for it i know ull be down,
I ain't funky but i can still take you to town.
I'm gona board your vessel,
but I ain't no pirate like em rest.
No treasure to share, but a heart of gold
locked inside my chest.

-mh

notion

belief is a fantasy created by our dreams and bestowed with faith and hope.
We come to terms because we have to, not because we want to.
We come to hate when care is so deep yet like and love cannot describe this emotion, thus we must hate.
We become repulsed once something so beyond our control sickens us.

They say english works like math. I won't hesitate to agree.

-lmc

work

day 1- what a great day. budget by 12. no bitchiness, no catiness, just pure happiness :)
day 2- Some monster of a kid decides to step on my foot and i giggle it off to be polite. little monster of a child you made my foot bleed. rage.
day 3- Some child sits in the trolly on a large bag of chum. She shows me her bubbles as i show her mother a ring. woah, step up...oh golly child, your pants are wet. yellow liquid on the floor. i begin to pass paper to the parents. oh hell no, will i clean your childs urine. rage.
day 4- i hope it gets better.

-lmc

Challenge Day 2

They say the pen is mightier than the sword
But how well can my dagger fare against the horde?
Exams aren't about the knowledge that you forcefully intake,
Its all about how masterfully you can can regurgitate.
Now the hard parts over, the battle against exams is won.
Time to face the holidays, and the war has just begun.
The price of freedom is daunting, and it comes at a price.
Living in sin means gluttony, and everyone wants a slice.

-mh

strength

'they say what doesn't kill you, can only make you stronger,
but how much more can you take and for how much more longer?
If death is the only feeling, passing you by,
then this theory is flawed, wrong and a complete and utter lie,
immunity is what it is, that is what you gain,
so try not to beat yourself up, and soon will pass the pain.'

-lmc

Challenge Day 1

fear of the unknown, fear of the future
fear brought on by the differences in culture
now our paths are separated cos of religious segregation
what happened to unity and acceptance, cos this feels like degradation
someone like you, in this lifetime i will never find
so now I'm living life, truly undefined
cos without you life has lost all meaning,
to replace you would be sick, twisted and demeaning
feels like my soul is shredding, piece by fucking piece
i want to sleep forever but i will never rest in peace


-mh

Horcrux

A horcrux is created by breaking off a part of your soul,
and placing it in an object or living thing.
Voldemort ripped his soul into seven pieces through murder.
However, I have found a much easier way.


-mh

control

' Making something that was within my control, beyond my control so i didn't have to face it.
Realising what's beyond your control can no longer be within your control, and left facing every responsibility for it.
I'm sorry. Selfish, naive and foolish. I'm sorry.

-lmc

19/06/11

19/06/11

The day I found out i was infact, human



"tears are made of sadness, and they come out
when you cry. So when you cry, it's not because
you're sad, it's because you're becoming happy"
-SMBC

restart

'sometimes, it's the cleanest plates that come from the dirtiest dishes'

-lmc

rage

to reach that impossible apex
of being blinded by rage
but at the same time
to see with such clarity.


-mh

differentiate

' They say bad habits die hard, but that's not to say they don't.
Cause, I don't need you anymore'

-lmc

stranger

' cause the only thing I can ask for now, is for you not to forget me.'

-lmc

repulsed

who the fk do you think you are?

Reminded

Because I wanted to remind myself:

"Whether you are encumbered in pain, or surrounded by joy, cherish every single moment for the greatest gift we are all bestowed with, is the miracle of life itself."

To say that you are one of the greatest gifts I have been bestowed with can only mean that without you my life would not be so miraculous. So lets push past this pain and cherish more moments together.


-mh

elevator

walk in, walk out, that's all you ever do.
It just seems whenever you walk in, the doors shut and I go up,
and when that time passes you just simply walk out and I go back down.
You, having no regard of how much energy or effort i put into going up,
no regard to how shit i feel when i go back down.
walk in, walk out. That's all you ever do.
Well here's my proposition.
Stay in or walk the fk out, cause one of these days this elevator isn't going to work anymore.

-lmc

chances

' How many chances is deemed acceptable before we realise we have no routine- we simply just circulate our lives around someone elses'

-lmc

memories

'appreciate goodbyes.
It's only when we lose the moments we gain the distant memories'

lmc

bittersweet

'the longest goodbye possible'

-lmc

flawed victory

'are you a burden or a miracle?'

-lmc

leave

'never meant so much yet felt so little.
This is my silent sign to tell you to fk off'

-lmc

facade

Dear You,

It's been a while since we've talked...the longest we haven't talked. I don't know what's going on, how you've been or what you've been up to, but I'm good. A little stressed about exams but the same old same old. I've been told on numerous occasions that I've changed and sometimes I wonder if you have too. I wonder if you still look at my blogs or check my facebook to check up on me. You crossed my mind and I felt compelled to check yours. You seem well, you seem happy and I can honestly take a step back and be happy for you. At one point or another you meant so much to me and it does hurt that we aren't as close anymore. Never was it my intention to allow my stubbornness nor yours to distance us, but it has and that's what life teaches you. People do walk in and out of your life easily and effortlessly but it's up to you to keep them. It's a two way street and sometimes when you want them to stay bad enough, you will put in extra effort, but i guess neither of us did that huh? My lack of effort to stay in touch and your inability to reciprocate when I did was all it needed to say goodbye. Looking at old photos I couldn't help but smile. We may not have the moments but at least we have the memories.

xx.
Helen

break

We tend to breakdown or breakeven.
Perhaps its time to just breakaway.

-lmc

distance

"For every step I take forward,
I take a deeper fall back'

-lmc

Day Ten

One Confession:

" I come across as arrogant, cold, bitchy and heartless cause half the time i pretend not have a heart, so those around me, don't know when it's broken'

-lmc

late

'They say its better late than never.
But what happens when your late becomes an inevitable never?'

-lmc

Day NIne

Two smileys
1.) :)

- Lets face it, I can actually say i'm pretty happy at the moment. I've been through every emoticon possible so now i've finally returned back to base one...happy. Just smile and go with the flow. Might as well.

2.) 8-)
I've finally learned to stop moving mountains for people. True, there are some people in my life that I let walk over me, but either than that? Yeah, there's a big chance i'll just roll my eyes at you. Take every moment as it comes and if it doesn't go as planned....just roll your eyes.

-lmc

truth

' Sometimes, it takes one action for all truth to come out.

Problem with these 'truths'?

They always come about when unnecessary'

-lmc

Day Eight

Three turn ons

1.) smell good. There's just something about a guy that always smells good, and even if they just walk past...you wanna look back and see who smells so goddam good. :x

2.) Nice hair. Put gatsby, straighten it...i don't care just do your goddam hair.

3.) Confidence. Hot. Just hot.


-lmc

Love&War

If all's fair in love and war
be fair and ask yourself what you're fighting for.
They say wars not about who's right, but who's left
well loves the same, just a different hole in your chest
First you're falling in love then you're falling apart,
no matter how hard you fall you were dead from the start.
It always starts with a single fight.
But as all hell breaks loose I can smell the sulphite.
Well if this is hell then i guess its finally frozen over
cos i just got frostbite when she gave me the cold shoulder
when the battle begins, can't believe what i just heard
like bullets through my brain, they be fighting words.
You bring up the past, and the die has been cast
but why you bring up the past when its already passed?
Now I'm a soldier of fortune, but i aint so lucky
Cos everything you say is right on the money
I'm the underdog here, and i put up a fight,
but this dogs got no bark and hardly any bite.
With a final attack and this war is done
the outcome is bleak and nobody feels like they've won
I check out the battlefield and its soaked with bloodshed,
except every drop of blood is a drop of a tear shed.
So if all's fair in love and war
Why does it always feel like i love you more


-mh

degree

' A couple of words, an action, a couple of seconds can change your everything to your nothing'

-lmc

Day Seven

4 turn offs

1.) Cocky people. Confidence is nice but push the boundary and you just became a cocky bastard.
2.) Push overs. I'm already one. I already know how annoying I can be, please don't be one as well.
3.) guys that think they know it all. Sif.
4.) Lack of confidence. They're just as bad as guys that are cocky. Both are equally annoying.


-lmc

Day six

5 people who mean a lot to you.

I'm gonna put all girls just so it limits my choices. Then, I'm going to put them in alphabetical order so i don't play favourites.

1.) Chrystal Copland-One of my best friends since i was 12. Still remained close after she did a runway for Chanel. Epic or what?
2.) Evonne- a little ball of sunshine
3.) Isma- The black version of me
4.) Julie- My rock
5.) Vanessa- My B1- self explanatory :)

-lmc

Day 5

Six things you wish you had never done

I honestly can't say much for this. Regretting is up to one's discretion and in saying that, I rarely regret anything I've ever done...but I'll do my best to sort this out.

1.) Be a rebellious child and skip some sunday temple lessons. My viet would probably be a bit better and I would probably be a more peaceful person
2.) Think i was invincible as a child and tell that big ass dog to go away. Almost bit me and scared my mom so badly :/ poor mama
3.) Go home late after playing at the neighbours house. My poor parentals had to put up with so much :(
4.) be so demanding. Up to the age of 9, i thought i could get whatever i wanted and would kick a fuss if i didn't get it. It was only when my siblings taught me to appreciate things and to be grateful that I stopped. Ironically enough, i teach them that now.
5.) lie, cheat, steal. Self explanatory.
6.) Not be so difficult as a person. Self explanatory if you know me well enough.

-lmc

day 4

7 things that cross your mind often

1.Family and Friends. I hope everyone is ok.
2.) Study. I hope i'm doing ok
3.) Work. i hope i did everything ok.
4.) Gym. When will I start?
5.) Coffee, When can i give you up?
6.) Food. My saviour.
7.) life in general. I think way too much.

-lmc

day 3

8 ways to win your heart

1.) Make me smile when I already have tears in my eyes
2.) make me laugh when I have my serious face on
3.)Be the one I run to when I need to vent
4.) Make me feel special by a simple text
5.) Surprise me
6.) Build me up to break me down
7.) Be a daily passing thought
8.) Be the reason why everything bad feels so small

I honestly don't know how somebody can win my heart, so I won't tell you how you can win my heart. I'll just tell you what happens when somebody wins my heart.

-lmc

day 2

9 things about yourself- It's already in a blog i made earlier :(
1.) i'm naive
2.)I'm lame
3.)I think I contradict myself too much because i'm flimsy
4.) I say everything that's on my mind
5.) I'm extremely indecisive
6.) I want to be able to somehow change the world for the better
7.) I'm a fast talker, fast walker but slow learner
8.) I don't trust people no matter how much i adore them
9.)I think too much about too little, and too little about too much

-lmc

day 1

Tumblr challange?

Her: you're incredible, amazing but not invincible. You push yourself too hard cause you know you can, but that doesn't mean you should. My rock when I'm unstable. I don't even want to imagine how crazy I would be without you.

Him: Still amazing after all this time :) Please don't lose that about yourself

Her: Looking at you is almost equivalent to looking at a mirror of myself. I find it so goddam hard to make good girl friends at uni, and you have no doubt been my best while being at uni, for that I thank you :) You act like my best friend, sister and sometimes mom and I appreciate you so much :) Undoubtfully amazing:)

Him: You deserve better. I can honesly say I only want the best for you. You're amazing. That's just it. I hope you end up with someone I can look at and just be in awe. Cause that's what you deserve at the end of the day. You're gonna make any girl the happiest girl ever. Seriously.

Her: Undoubtfully naive in the best and worst way possible. You unintentionally use it to you're adventage without even realising. Naive to the point where it touches stupidity, but I can't say much cause I would probably do the same in your position. Rrgardless, you have a heart of gold, which is so innocent and non corrupt I can't help but admire that.

Him: Bro's for life. Gonna keep it short and sweet. My listener when I need to vent, my bro when I need to drink and one of my closest friends when I need you there :)

Her: The biggest love/ hate relationship of my life. I hate the things you do and say but I know you unintentionally mean it. One on one you're amazing but you succumb to society's pressure and you become the biggest asshole in the world.

Him: We're no longer as close as we use to be. We've both changed, unsure if its for the best or worst. mine? undoubtfully the worst which is probably why we're so distant. I blame me, I blame you, I blame us.

Her: You are living proof that just because you do bad things does not mean you're a bad person. :) Regardless of how you see yourself, I think you're a little ball of sunshine :) simply put :)

Her: One of the only people I have disliked so much for no direct reason. I don't think you're even half as nice, mature or even caring as you present yourself to be. Ulterior motives and manipulation. I lack respect for you. You are the sole reason I trust my instincts but in saying that, you are the sole reason I hate assumptions.

-lmc

walls

' people walk in and out of our lives so easily, so effortlessly, it's no wonder people have walls.

We learn to trust our instincts when we find we can't trust anyone. We learn we can't trust anyone when we find we should trust our instincts'.

-lmc

realisation

'That moment you realise that there are more reasons to dislike someone then there is to like someone.
Begging you to prove me wrong, but this is the one test you always seem to fail.'

-lmc

Listen

' a wise band once said,

'don't stop,never give up...hold your head high till you reach the top. When the world seems like it's too tough bring it all back to you'

Now they may not have any credidentials in psychology or what not, but those wise words were foreever embedded in my head.

Now you. Yes you. I want you to read these words and actually anatomise them. Sometimes, I don't know why you push yourself to limits so unbearable they make me shiver a tinge. But in saying that, I can understand why your lifestyle does seem so appealing to you.The fact that you're busy 24/7 means that when you're busy physically doing something you no longer have to be busy mentally. This procrasination of thinking is not giving yourself more time, it's just allowing you to avoid inevitable situations. Now I'm not saying to go off the walls and overthink everything to the same extent I do, i'm telling you to calm your shit down. You're incredible and amazing but you don't need to be over productive or busy burning yourself out to know that. Just be you- It's worked for the last 19 years or so. :)

-lmc

Introduce Yourself

Hi :)

My name is Helen :) I'm a walking contradiction, too much of too many polar opposites that are taken to the extreme. I'm naive because its my reason and my excuse. I tend to go woth the flow, but overthink things that should either be in hindsight or left for 'Future Helen'. I push myself to every limit possible until I physically AND mentally can no longer tank it. I like to think that one day i can save the world because i've never seen anybody save everybody but i know for a fact that everybody can save somebody. Although I pretend that I'm not...I act like a complete girl. I'm irrational, impatient, I overthink, overanalyse and overreact. I prefer experience over books. I'm positively content. I know i could be a hell of a lot happier but at the same time i'm happy with the way things are knowing it could be a hell of a lot worse. I'm a realistic optimist. I like to smile because i find it sexy in others and try and bring my a-game everyday. I am lame. I am Helen. :)

-lmc

reattach

'you hate the way it is, because you miss the way it was.

You learn to deal with content. Not because we settle at being a little less happier than we know we could be but because we learn that we could be a hell of a lot less happier at any given moment'

-lmc

letter of content

dear subconscious,

there is no reason for this dislike. You have never disliked someone so much for no direct reason. wtf is going on up there?

yours sincerely,

Helen

sorry

'i'm sorry for the stupid things I do.
I'm sorry that I have too much pride to say it.
I'm sorry that I feel like this willl give me an excuse to do this stupid crap again
and i'm sorry i'm using this naitivity as a poor excuse'

-lmc

someday

'Is it possible to meet someone and think they're completely average, get to know them, find them amazing, just to think they're completely average by the end of it? '

-lmc

wrong

"why does doing bad things feel so good?"

there is no right or wrong,
only right and morally wrong.

closure

'Just realise this...I never closed the door on you. It was always left ajar in the hope that you would try and open it. '

-lmc

deteriorate

'That moment you realise you just wanna test your limits cause you've learnt not to give a crap'

-lmc

anatomize

'everyone has their own ulterior motives. fk the universe. i knew it.
when the hell am I ever going to learn?'

-lmc

Try

"its funny really, how life works.
the things you try to hold on to, you try to remember,
those are what you end up losing.
And everything you try to forget or throw away,
those are the things that stay..."

-Try
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xj9x6kUJX98


and i'm getting tired of trying...



-mh

perception

'I thank you for the way I am.
I blame myself for the way I am :)'

-lmc

double edge

'this has become my double edge sword.
decimating my brain and every other part of me that's not already in pain.'

-lmc

change

'Weak, naive and stupid. Who knew a crack could create such a harsh repercussion?' -lmc

necassary

'I will always care more than necessary.
You will always mean more than necessary.'

-lmc

content

'Is this content, acceptance or denial?'

-lmc

discretion.

'remember when I became a nothing to you?
well here's my retaliation...

'f*ck you and goodbye'

I've learnt to lose all respect for you'

-lmc

punishment

' So this is what 'burning out' feels like. Not as bad as expected, lol. People are too dramatic.'

-lmc

instinct

' No, I never really did believe you. Thanks for showing me I was right.'

-lmc

elements

'When you have a broken heart, Getting up in the morning and going to bed at night are probably the hardest part of the day. But get up, knowing today brings another day, and go to bed, realising you just survived another day. You're a lot stronger than you believe. Weak in the sense that you allow thoughts to become reality, strong in the sense that you allow thoughts to become reality. Your weakness is your strength so don't allow it to get the best of you.
Think wise, act rationally and don't change who you are just because somebody changed the way you look at life. Be nice, play nice, for the reason of your recent contempt is only temporary. Get upset, get angry but in saying that...let go and move on. Don't cry about something that is completely beyond your control. Navigate away from the thoughts that are breaking you down and focus them on something that will generate a benefit for you.
It's perfectly reasonable and understandable for you to think about it once in a while, but don't allow it to control your life. You're better than that, even if you can't see that now.'

-lmc

play

'play nice, for this feeling of contempt is only temporary'

-lmc

often

' Even though I may not do what you do, I can still understand why you would do it. I'm pretty rationale as a person...despite how irrational i may come across. At the end of the day I'm not your average girl but my mind still ponders like one. I may not come across as the type to over think, over analyze or even over react to something but I do. My train of thought may be different to others but it leads to a similar destination. Despite how little I may care, it could be the one thing that is drilling my system. Despite how little care or effort I may put into something, it may be my number one priority. No matter how busy i may seem you'd never guess how often i try to enter the mind of others for a brief moment to know what they're thinking, how they're thinking and why they think like that. No matter how pieced together I may seem I could be broken into tiny pieces, but in saying that, no matter how broken i may seem I may be pieced together perfectly.'

-lmc

promise

'...and i promise I won't ever hate you.'

moral of the story: never make promises.

-lmc

direction

'Limitless directions to an imaginary destination...yet, I can't even seem to find one.'

-lmc

stubborn

'Pride, why must you be so stubborn?'

-lmc

delete

"I think I wore out my delete button already.
It doesn't seem to work anymore"

-lmc

care

just because you're not meant to care, doesn't mean you won't.

Guilt is an endless reminder that you know what's right and what's wrong but you choose to go down the wrong path.
welcome to that pathetic position that is my life.


-lmc

questions

'hold on. Take a step back. Look around. analyse.
Yeah, that makes no f*cking sense.'

-lmc

Leave

'I f*cking hate people.
Isolation has become my sanctuary'

-lmc

observe

'Hurt is the observation that you will someday mean nothing.
Pain in the revelation that I always meant nothing'

-lmc

phase

' i'm naive but you're stupid. At least mines a phase that's going to pass. Yours? not so much...unless you learn to grow the fk up.'

-lmc

fall

'i like watching people for in love...
but only when its deserved.'

-lmc

fantasy

' I created a fantasy. I doubt any of it was real'

-lmc

amazing

'are you amazing? i can't tell anymore'

-lmc

change

'it's ok. I finally understand.

I am a shit friend.'

-lmc

try

' i wished we tried,
but we didn't.
so here it is,
wait for it.

i'm sorry and goodbye.'

-lmc

detox

'unhealthier than anything i could possibly imagine.'

-lmc

end

' Don't get me wrong, as much as I complain and whinge I wouldn't change a thing. why?
Because at the end of the day I know what's right and I know what's wrong.
The only difference between every other girl and myself is that I choose to go the wrong path. I choose to risk it all for a first hand experience at something. Tell me these stories of regret, tell me these stories of mistake but that won't stop me from doing anything. If anything, it'll just intrigue me more. I don't want to be your average girl, I wanna be that exception. Throw me pain, i'll just catch it and suck it up.'
-lmc

care

'i'm hoping this will be one of those things where if you say it enough,
it'll actually happen...

cause at the end of the day, I don't care.'

*fingers crossed*

-lmc

butterflies

'please don't murder them cause you'll end up killing a part of yourself as well'

-lmc

grow

'all this time i thought it was me, when really it was you'

-lmc

sorry

'i'm sorry- it was never my intention' :(

-lmc

Adventure!

So i took vivimumus new years resolution and was ADVENTUROUS!
Yesterday i went to adventure world with a whale, Jong XL (cos his cock is Xtra Large),
and mr punchy (JohnKhoo).
This was a nighttime affair, starting at 6pm due to it being some kind of LotteryWest event which we managed to score free tickets to thanks to our lovely and generous whale =)

When we arrived i was feeling nauesous and my heart was palpitating(?) very fast as I have a secret confession to make - i am absurdly scared of HEIGHTS. So yes, this was my first time at adventure world and i made a mental note in my head that hopefully it would be the last.

The first ride we went on was Bounty's Revenge. Thank god it was the first ride we went on because it was probably the most tame one we went on. Jong XL kept trying to make us standup when we were in the air but i kept saying "no fucking way" as i stared straight ahead, knuckles white as i grasped the bar tightly with all the strength i could muster.
Karen just looked bored and judged me, worried that i might succumb to my nervousness and yack all over her, thereby beaching her (which ironically enough is HER greatest fear).

After this ride I thought to myself, hey that wasn't SO bad, I was alive and feeling slightly less nauesous. For reasons unknown (probably cos it was the closest) we went on probably the scariest ride there - THE RAMPAGE. Having to line up for ages gave us good plenty of time to see how the ride works, and most importantly, the looks on the faces of those on the rampage. I shifted nervously as i noticed one girl was teary and sobbing, and a fat guy held up the ride by constantly changing seats and then finally deciding to pussy out. I could feel the sand slowly start to fill my vagina as i shuffled nervously in the line. Jong XL looked pretty excited because unlike me, with my sandy vagina, he has a very large cock both metaphorically speaking, and in reality too. Seriously. its HUGE.

THE RAMPAGE WAS FUCKING SCARY. like seriously. WHAT. THE. FUCK. i was shitting myself and had my eyes closed 90% of the time. Once i tried opening them but i thought i was going to die so i shut them again hurriedly. I swore that if i could do this, i could go on any other ride with no problems, because surely this was the scariest ride created by Man.

And yes, I was right, for the FreeFall and the Power Surge were not all that bad after having been Rampaged, and so i feel like i have defeated, nay CONQUERED, my fear of heights somewhat, and though we did not go on any water slides, i do not feel like i've missed out, for the only thing i wanted to try was the Tunnel of Terror, which is kinda like Karen's vagina anyway so theres a ride i won't need to pay entry for regardless. ;) JOKES. seriously. ty for the experience my favorite whale!

life in words

start : fresh
stop : caring
love : yourself
hate : nothing
missing : you
gaining : respect
trying : hard
failing : epically
giving up : slowly
leaving: with a quote

'I like to reminisce with people I don't know. That way, they can't change my side of the story'

....http://me-len.blogspot.com/2010/06/life-in-words.html

-lmc ;)

experience

'you gave me something nobody ever has- experience'

-lmc

v.day

'I'd rather die alone then drop my standards'

-lmc

spontaneous combustion

'sometimes we don't see when somebody has turned their back on us,
simply because we had our backs facing them the whole time'

-lmc

subjective

It's perfectly fine to be undefined,
As long as you can define who you are within that lack of definition.

-lmc

extricate

you come around when the bench is clean
yet, you so easily leave at the sight of dirt.

-lmc

new

So here's a fun fact about me.
Bet you didn't know I like to read old things that make me cry.
Why do I do such things?
Oh, so i remember how some things hurt me and to never make the same stupid goddam mistakes again.
To forgive and forget is kind. But it is also stupid and naive
Yes, I have learnt one thing about myself. I do hold grudges.

-lmc

watch

'watch me, cause that's as close as you'll ever get to me'

-lmc

wish

'i wish i didn't care....but i kinda wish you did.'

-lmc

days

'you make good days. They don't just come to you, you wake up, drink your coffee put a smile on your face and just have a good day. Think positive cause everywhere else is gloomy you just have to look past it.
On another note: I'm more sleep deprived and stressed then i was during exams. I may be superhuman but there's no way in hell i'm a goddam superhero'

-lmc

holiday

' I need a break,
somebody give me a holiday...please'

-lmc

remorse

'i'll be the first and last to tell you off,
because nobody else has the guts to.
I'm sorry but some things need to be said no matter how cruel they seem.'

-lmc

grats

I havent blogged in awhile,
but this is certainly blogsworthy.
I want to congratulate my beautiful lil sis.
Skwa, u've made ur gorgor proud =)
My cheeks hurts from smiling so much!
Work hard, Add Oil!
x

-mh

exist

'with the accumulation of approx 10 hours sleep in the last 3 days i can't help but think how comfy my bed is.
That and the fact i want to leave it.
This problem seems to exist a lot in my life.'

-lmc

hate

'i hate the fact that you're always on my mind.'

-lmc

the reason we cuss and curse

let's be realistic.
Can you handle this?


...cause I don't think i can. eos.

-lmc

sink

'that dying sinking feeling, in your stomach,
where you feel like a part of you has literally died.
Expecting the worse but hoping/ praying/ begging for the best.
This is where it all comes down.
This is where it all sinks.
And who would have guessed, that the first place in your whole entire body that would feel it is the stomach.
Those books that say its your head or your heart? yeah they lied.'

-lmc

trust

'trust is a 5 letter word. An overused word. A word that has started to lose meaning. So besides family, who do i trust? yeah, about 2 people. And yeah, that scares the shit out of me...My cold heart is finally starting to make me feel sick.'

-lmc