bitch

' You think i'm being honest.
Society thinks i'm being realistic.
I think i'm being a bitch.'

When did it become a bad thing to be a bitch?
Minus the sugar coating and nobodies ever as sweet as they seem to be'

-lmc


'the reason why girls are bitchy
is the same reason why men are jerks.
they're both territorial.

in the end, they all just want the same thing.
each other =) '

-mh

stability

'does stability = routine?
or does stability = comfort?
or is stability something else entirely?

the 3 month curse. can it be overcome?'

-mh

'it's funny how you only seem to be able to realise
what's really around you when you're stable.
Look around, nobody's pushing you.
Breathe it in and breathe it out. appreciate it.
Until one little nudge makes you fall to the ground and breaks you apart.
That's when you realise you weren't stable.
you were simply just standing still'

-lmc

help

'i can't help but to want you,
i can't help but to miss you,
I can't help but to keep coming back to you.
I can't help but to feel bad for certain situations,
I can't help but to smile from the thought of you :)
I can't help but to know that this is a fake reality'

*sidenote- for miss juju :):):)

-lmc



'i can't help myself
from helping myself
to a piece of you.'

-mh

fall

'I'm not gonna jump and fall,
if I'm not 100% sure you're gonna catch me.
If u decide not to wait and to walk away,
there's no safety net. I'm gonna fall...and it's gonna hurt.'

*switch i to you, and change you to me :)

-lmc


'to fall suggests
that at some point,
you will land.
i guess that's the same for love.
no one can fall forever
just be careful how you land.'

-mh

deposit

'so yesterdays car incident
is my karmic deposit for the next month or so
wait for me june... daddys coming home >:D'

-mh


'Time is a deposit on an intangible layby.
Adding more and more time payments to get what u want,
till the point where you realise by the time you get it...
it's not the same.
So you stop making those payments.
Forget about the good you wanted,
and realise you're never gonna get your deposit back'

-lmc

lies

'Does lying really make you feel better?
does it help you sleep at night?
I don't know and frankly I don't care.
I don't know whether or not I should be pissed at the lies you tell,
or to just feel sorry for you.
I hate to be the one that calls bs, but I call bs on your niceness.
You pathetic piece of s***.
end of this stupid story'

-lmc


'stealing is bad
lying is worse
but being in denial is the worst'

-mh

different perspectives

I'm starting to realise I forgive people too easily.
I don't know if it's a bad thing or a good thing. It's my flaw but at the same time, it's probably the reason why people put up with me. I'm starting to get what everybody means when they tell me i'll be easy to eff over. Problem is, I don't know how I can change that. Maybe I should start making people earn their forgiveness? I'm not too sure, all i know is, the people that hurt you tend to scar you. Scars are permanant, they stay with you. What do you do in these type of situations?

Do you change that aspect of you cause you think it's your flaw? or should you keep that part of you, just because it makes you who are you. confusion makes my head hurt more than dizzy's from mama teh. sigh burger

-lmc

mark

' the step you took into my life,
left a permanent mark.
Now it's up to me to see how to erase it,
I know i can, i just have to find the right solution'

-lmc



'to make a mark is only half the job
to leave a mark is getting the job done.'

-mh

flaw

'
"You come to love
not by finding the perfect person,
but by seeing an imperfect person
perfectly."
must be one of my favorite quotes.

meeting me is your flawed victory'

-mh

'A flaw is just another word for special.
They call it a flaw. You call it special.
Flaws make you the person you are.
Special aspects about you make you who you are'

-lmc

fight

'give me something worth fighting for.
Yeah, didn't think you could.
The white flags up. I guess you won this round...

jhnwff'

-lmc


"does fighting a losing battle make you
courageous? or a
coward?

i think it just makes u a nice guy."

-mh

easy

'"How can you do statistics when you don't even know how to do basic math?"
I wonder myself.
Sometimes i just like to skip the easy stuff.
But I realized too late,
there is no such thing as "easy".'

-mh

'Build up some walls.
nobody wants to walk in an unknown territory when the doors are open.
They'll just walk in and leave right after.
mysteriousness is the most beautiful experience'

-lmc

direct

'I wish people were more direct about things.
Sugarcoating sucks. If you don't like something about me...tell me.
If you like me...tell me.
If you want me to do something...tell me.
Don't wait till I figure it out, cause I have really bad timing.
It'll probablyy be too late by the time I realise...seriously'

-lmc


'I was the young starlet, he was the ambitious director.
He had found me in the talent directory,
Hoping for a star, not just another pretty face.
He directed with great passion and vision, and soon I fell for him.
I was naive and impressionable, and i longed for his directive
not only on camera, but offcamera too.
He was notorious for his directness,
And yet I was still unprepared when he told me that we could never be.
Such a cruel and direct answer.
I cried and pleaded that without him i had no direction in life,
but he merely stared, those usual eyes of fiery passion,
glazed over with a blankness i had never before seen.
"You don't need a direction in life, because your life is going nowhere."
I couldn't believe my ears, and I ran, with tears streaming down my face.
I didn't stop running, couldn't stop running, in no particular direction,
...directly into you.
I apologised, and fell to the ground, exhausted with no dignity and no hope left.
You pulled me up, and wiped away my tears.
You were the direct opposite of him, a man with no ambition, no vision,
Just a simple man, with a caring soul and a smile that melted my heart.
My broken heart and shattered dreams had brought me directly to you.
And now, I have a new direction in life.
A life of loving you.'

-mh

ego

'I really do judge too quickly. That was fact.
Maybe you are a lot prettier than I think you are,
Maybe you are a lot nicer than I assume you are,
Maybe you are a lot smarter than i perceive you to be,
Maybe I'm just in a really good mood.
That was fiction.
This is why I don't like social acceptance.
It allows me to believe social powers outweigh social morals.
sigh sorry. Nah, not really. My ego's too high for apologies'


-lmc

'even the biggest egos
are no match for statistics.
and thats a fact!'

-mh

pressure

'bus uncle i know how you feel.
i understand your frustration.
that 6 minutes must've been hard for you.
but i know the 6 hours after was a lot worse.

--but he really didn't deserve it.'

-mh

'pressure comes from the most unknown places,
that, and from the most unsuspecting people.'

-lmc

move

'it's funny how i never deleted you from my mind,
never erased you, never forgot about you, never elimated the thought of you,
I simply just moved you. I needed to.
I can't rid you, the only thing I can do is move you.
you're no longer my priority, but you're still there :)'

-lmc

reality

'lalaland is not the antithesis of reality.
it is merely MY reality.
its awesome here, come stay with me :)'

-mh

'I don't care what kind of reality I have to live in,
as long as you're here with me,
i'm pretty sure I got a sweet deal ;)'

-lmc

disappointed

'sometimes I can't help but be,
maybe I expect too much or perhaps you care too little,
I'm not too sure.
All i know is...you're smarter than that,
you know better, your instincts are getting better,
only problem is...i'm starting to doubt you deserve better'

-lmc

dr phil

' i feel like the real dr phil,
can't say i'm hating it though.
It'd funny how people come to me in the face of adversity :)
its kinda nice. I don't mind looking like a zombie for you guys :)
it sucks how everybody is upset in an aggregate thoguh. sigh.
i wanna help but feel like im copying pasting connversations when really they are all so different.
same story, different characters. The game never changes but the players do.
eos.'


-lmc

ruin

'I'm sorry for making you think I was mad,
when really i was just upset and sad,
I hate what I make you go through,
cause of the things others say and do,
Sometimes its nice to know that you're appreciated,
cause when u don't you feel so goddam hated,
I thank you for letting me know u care,
so i know at the end you'll still be there,
I just hope i didn't ruin your day,
from the nasty words I had to say'

-lmc

'it was not ur nasty words that got me cut,
it was the lies that made me sick to the gut
you deserved a nice kick in the butt.
luckily you redeemed yourself after your haircut
and im glad that this case is shut.
i hope you never fall into the same rut.
and get angry at this strawberry slut'

-mh

mother's day

'mummy i love you for loving me
and because you brought me into this world.

please don't hate her for it guys'

-mh

'mother's day isn't a day for artificial love through materialistic gifts,
no, it's a day to remind ourselves of what we have been blessed with,
my mother, awesome as she is,
brought me into this world, little did i realise, she made my world.
Today just reminds us to take a moment from our busy schedules
and take notice of the things people do for us.'

-lmc

Cloud

'girls are like clouds, and men are like the wind
They're all nice and calm till the wind pushes them to hard,
Then the tears come in the form of rain
I'm lucky I'm bitter. I'm a grey cloud...I get u as my silver lining



'watching clouds is fun
because what shape it forms
is different for each person.
it may take the form of your greatest fear
like a snake
or it may take the form of something that brings you joy
like an icecream
or it make take the form of your hearts innermost desire
like a car
------------------------------

strange though,
everytime i stare up at the clouds
all i see is your face.'

-mh

fine

' when i tell you it's fine- you're fked
when i say whatever- it means you're fked
when i say i don't mind or care- it probably means you're fked'

people are so ave. eos

-lmc


'people are not ave,
the situations they find themselves in are ave.
when did ave become bad
and fine become not good enough?'

-mh

bait

'It's not like nobody is trying to catch you,
it's just that nobody has got the right bait,
but once somebody tries hard enough to figure it out,
you'll be hooked and taken out of the sea.
one less fish in the sea. One special bait :)'

-lmc

'cast your line and sit and wait
what fish will you catch? you deliberate
it all depends on the kind of bait.
because nobody catches the perfect mate
just based on pure luck and fate.
so take out your rod, and cast it straight
do not get irate if you catch one you hate
don't get your hopes down let it deflate
and dont just settle for a fish you can tolerate.
just remember that you are awesome, you are great
if all else fails, you can always go interstate.
or just stay home and masturbate. '

-mh

stress

i think with all the stress going around, it gives off a negative vibe.
within the last couple of days i've become a lot more
bitchy, catty, annoyed, pessimistic and upset.
people really need to start taking chill pills.
soon enough i won't be the stress ball, i'll be the stress kitten.
FML when that happens. sigh

-lmc

reminder

'"Our entire lives are based on a single inevitability, that one day, our paths will end. Hope must never fade, for without, our dreams will cease to exist. To journey onwards without being able to feel would only render our memories meaningless.

Whether you are encumbered in pain, or surrounded by joy, cherish every single moment for the greatest gift we are all bestowed with, is the miracle of life itself.

Cry with meaning, until the anguish extinguishes. Laugh until the tears stop and your tummy hurts. Mourn until a smile blooms. Hold like you're never going to let go. Never determine an absolution without considering a better alternative. Speak with a conviction justifying your beliefs but listen like it was the last word, and most important of all, love with every single fragment and force of your being. Hold back one little bit and you will not have the chance to relive the moment that just passed by."

this is who you were, and who you still have a chance to be.
either way, ill always be there,
and always be proud.'

-mh

' If you need to remind yourself that i'm there,
I need to remind myself why i bother to care,
if you need to convince yourself that i'm the one,
i need to remind myself this was just for fun,
If you need to tell yourself that you will heal,
i'll be your reminder that it was real'

-lmc :)

expect

'in economics, the theory goes...
if you expect it...it's gonna happen.
I wonder what will happen,
what i expect....
or what everybody expects as an aggregate'

-lmc :)



'i did not expect to get sick.
but now that i am sick
i expect to get well soon.

i did not expect to take so long
to finish this essay.
but now that im halfway through
i expect to finish it soon.

i did not expect to meet someone like you
but now that i have
i expect us to never part.
ever.

----------------------
everything above was a lie
they were all hopes, not expectations
because expectations are the bane of my existence.'

-mh

hurt

'just like love, it needs no reason.
The only thing you know is that
you probably did something to make yourself feel this way.
you or somebody else at least.'

lmc


'the biggest lie you will ever hear
but you can never prove nor disprove it:
"this hurts me more than it hurts you"

..unless you're badass and you never feel anything'

-mh

torn

' it feels like before,
but in a whole diff way,
it's the wrong kind of right,
but not the right kind of wrong,
damn, i'm torn '

-lmc


'many strawberries
one strawberry king
not enough happy strawberry time'

-mh

care

'when was the moment you stopped?
when was the moment I realised I shouldn't?'

-lmc

'sometimes i care so much it hurts.
or rather
sometimes it hurts because you don't care enough'

-mh

miss

'it's the million little things bout u that i miss,
trying to find it in a million different people,
It's not that they don't have those qualities,
it's just that they aren't you.
i don't need a million people. I just need you'

lmc

'its fair to miss you when i don't see you
but its just ridiculous even when im with you,
that i miss you already.
this is about as needy as i get.
savour it =)'

-mh

want

'people assume want and desire are the same thing,
sometimes i do too (damn you economics),
i've come to the conclusion they're different,
just because you desire something,
doesn't mean you want it. eos'

-lmc

'careful what you wish for
cos when you get what you want
you might just realize
you never wanted it in the first place'

-mh